death

and if only i got my death,

would you care??

would you pray me all time?

would you still remember me after years?

would you feel lonely? silent? different?

i wanna know,

how long would you keep thinking about me?

how would life be without me?

if you, what do you wanna people do if you got your own death?

love is a sweet torment.

love. whatever it is, but it actually brings happiness.

not just a feeling. it takes so much special words to describe.

love does not ever make lovers do something crazy, something bad, something blind, or whatever those like. love is never blind. love always sees whatever in front. love is always right.

no minus words for love.

love also does not need sacrifices.

love just wants lover to love with its love.

i do not exactly know what love is.

i just know, love does ..

make me wanna cry. wanna smile at the same time.

make me wanna scream. wanna keep silence at the same time.

make me wanna go. wanna stay at the same time.

make me happy but also sorrow at the same time.

no, love is not confusing.

whatever you feel, love is just a sweet torment.

we did not say anything.

Me : i just wanna say sorry for all my mistakes to you. i just want you to know that i am happy being your friend :) you have to trust me. i am just really happy. you helped me anytime, you heard me anytime, and you smiled me everytime we meet. althought i did not. i wanna ask your help for one time more..

H : yeah. i am happy you say that. but, what do you want for me?

Me : okay, first, i wanna say thanks for being my friend. my good friend :) but, i also wanna you to keep avoiding me. it is just for someone i love very much. i wanna you to act like you dont know about me. anything about me.

H : why?

Me : i dont know why, you just have to help me. just keep avoiding me. i never forget how we made this friendship, but, i want you to dont know me anymore. thanks for everything.. and thanks for your last help. i wont consider you as my friend anymore. i hope you'll do the same..

H : is that really what you want? okay, i will help you. but, please dont ever forget, i wont let you go. i dont know the exactly reasons are, but i just won't let you go. i promise..