Monday, March 3, 2014

Overtime

Lately, so much hard for us to meet each other. I dont know. Feeling empty inside. In few weeks, we will have our anniversary event. For the fourth times. I am so glad but i  worry too. I worry because, you seem someone else though i still can feel your self on me.
I wanna hug you, E.
I wanna hold your hands till i cant feel anything else.
I miss you. I love you.
Overtime.




"Not sure we did many selfies yesterday. Oh gezzz! I love you so much much much much much, E."

Saturday, February 1, 2014

YAY!!

terima kasih, E. sudah datang di hari sidang kelulusan aku.
dan terima kasih kawan-kawan solid 2009, untuk hadiah kelulusannya.
i love you bottthhhhh!!

marked 27-01-2014.

30 Januari

Telah banyak moment yang aku lewatin tanpa torehan apapun dalam halaman blog ini. Tapi, aku tidak ingin melewatkan satu hal ini.

Hari ini tertanggal 30 Januari 2014.
Hari ini setelah hari terakhir dilangsungkan sidang ujian tugas akhir di kampus.
Hari ini sungguh terasa beda. Setelah sebagian kecil dari diri kita yang mesti berpisah sudah tidak terlibat dalam satu mata kuliah yang sama. Setelah banyak moment yang pada akhirnya hanya menjadi sebuah kenangan, entah baik atau buruk bagi salah satu dari kita. Tapi sungguh, itu yang membekas selalu.
Hari ini senang dan sedih bercampur. Senang karena akhirnya telah menyelesaikan studi S1, akan tetapi seperti perpisahan yang lain, ini juga menciptakan sebuah kesedihan. Memang, tidak selamanya kita berpisah, akan tetapi lagi, seperti perpisahan yang lain, kesedihan ini sungguh terasa.
Setelah empat tahun lebih kita menjalin persahabatan dan persaudaraan.
Setelah empat tahun lebih kita mengalami keluh kesah dan suka cita perkuliahan bersama.
Setelah empat tahun lebih semuanya terjadi..
Setelah empat tahun lebih semuanya kita alami..
Setelah empat tahun lebih semuanya kita rasakan..
Semua yang sedih atau menyebalkan, pasti akan kita rindukan. Apalagi yang menyenangkan, pasti akan kita sangat-sangat rindukan.
Ah, klise memang jika aku sampaikan sebuah kalimat : mengapa harus ada perpisahan?
Tapi serius itu adalah kalimat yang ingin aku sampaikan. Tidak ada jawaban memang, tapi aku hanya ingin bertanya.

Kawan, terima kasih sudah mau datang ke hari sidangnya aku.
Aku tahu, sangat tahu, bagaimana perasaan iri kalian walau mungkin yang aku tahu tidak sampai seratus persen tahu. Tapi dengan posisi aku sebagai anak himpunan yang pertama maju, lalu dinyatakan lulus, dalam hati kalian pasti terselip kata ingin juga maju sidang lalu dinyatakan lulus. Tapi sungguh, dengan kehadiran kalian, aku sudah tahu. Bahwa perasaan iri yang kalian ucapkan, perasaan ingin juga yang kalian ungkapkan, tidak dapat menghalangi perasaan bahagia yang kalian rasakan untuk aku, untuk siapapun yang maju sidang semester ini. Dan untuk itu lah aku berterimakasih. Untuk sebuah perasaan bahagia yang mampu menutupi perasaan iri dan ingin juga itu. Sungguh, tidak ada kata-kata yang mampu aku ucapkan selain terima kasih bangeeeeeeeeeeetttt.
Semoga moment ini bisa melengkapi persahabatan kita selama ini, kawan!
Sayang banget sama kalian semua..
Semoga kita sukses selalu dan tidak melupakan satu sama lain.
Entah kata apa lagi yang bisa aku sampaikan di sini, selain kata terima kasih, sayang dan bahagia karena memiliki kawan seperti kalian. Ah, mungkin terkesan lebay dan gombal.. tapi ciyuuus bingit keleus ini.. MUAHH! Cium satu-satu!
Untuk yang masih berkutat dengan tugas akhir alias skripsi, semoga kalian selalu semangat dan tidak malas lagi untuk  ngerjain!! Demi wisuda bareng, kawan! Kejarlah.. kejar hingga ujung!

Yang berbahagia menjadi bagian dari erat persahabatan Solid 2009.
Putri Pratiwi Nurhasan DEFFROIN!! Wakakakak.. 

"seperti baru kemarin, kita saling berkenalan. melempar senyum dan saling menyebutkan nama.."

Monday, December 9, 2013

Well-not.

Well, sometimes i just feel like oh God! Yes.. Aku iriiii!!
Ke siapa? Ke kalian yang punya pacar juga banci kamera. Not banci beneran tapi ya setidaknya bisa berfoto-foto asik dengan kalian.
It's soooooooo different with my E. He's just not a camera-boy! 
It has been for months since we took photos! 

Sometimes, i thought taking pictures of me and E was just very important. Especially if we got to some new places or some interesting places. But he didnt think so. Makes me feel eeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrr.... 
So, friends. Keep your boyfie narsis-narsis jangan sampai luntur. Ohkaaaaaaaaaaay!!

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Asks

Everyone was asking me such this :
Why did you choose him for being your boyfie?

My heart actually asked too. Why did he choose me for being his girlfie?
I love you so much, E.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Happy graduation day!

Happy graduation day my dear E.
I love you so much. I really do.
I wish you anything the best for your life. dan semoga your life becomes our life.
Very proud of you!
all photos credit to Ika Yuliani, Renny and anyone took from my mobile. thank you.
 
"You know, you're very special for me.. Once again, I love you so much.."

Friday, October 11, 2013

Hanya saja.

Kita memang saling mencintai. Hanya saja tak mampu saling membahagiakan. Tapi juga tak sanggup untuk saling menyakiti. Biar Tuhan saja lah yang menamai apa perasaan kita ini namanya.
Satu hal yang pasti. Aku masih suka ketika kita saling bertatap mata. Lalu seolah aku bercermin melihat perasaanku juga ada di sana, dalam matamu. Bagiku, juga bagimu, mungkin semua ini sudah cukup untuk tetap menjaga percik api cinta dalam hati kita ini abadi. Walau tanpa sumbu.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Words bullying.

Be careful for your words.
Many people didnt realize that saying some insults by text or words is including into bullying too. Unfortunately, many other people who insulted by those saying words or texts were keeping silent for the hurts and pains the felt.
Do you know what kind of words that could be including into bullying? I bet you know. There are so many words. For some examples, the mocking words, stupid, fat, and etc. Or maybe words which described one side of the person you mocked at. Words like black to describe their dark skin, fatty for them who has more fat in their body and whatever just like that. For your informations, if you saw those sides about them, someone out there will actually saw too. So, just soooo much please, do not say it too much. Regularly. Out loud everyday, maybe everytime. 
Right now, maybe you're thinking like this : "yeah they're just too sensitive.."
Yes, you can say it. Yes you can. Because you didnt feel those hurts and pains when somebody mocked at you. You dont know because you're not the bullied person. You dont know how if the person is about being bullied all the time. You may wonder, how can I know?! because i am the person (too).
I am fat. Yes, I know.
But why do people say it too much? 
I feel hurts. You dont know.
Why do people just cant see the hurts and pains i have accepted? From my eyes, maybe. Oh, they dont even care.

Because of those words bullying. Orals or not. I was becoming less-confidence. I feel, I didnt have any clothes that fits me well. I felt, I was just that big big big big girl. I hate my body. So much. I hate the fat in my body. So much.
OhmyGod, I just think that actually ther was no one who wanted to be my friend. That actually those who still can be my friends are knowing me accidentally. Sorry for this negative thoughts :(
They say, I am fat.
They always say, I am fat.
It insults me everytime I mirrored my self.
I am just a fat girl.
I am just a fat girl.
Yes, their words which said that I am fat is always sounds on my ears.
I am broken hearted.
I have been being fat since long time ago. I know enough.

For some moments, I thought that I didnt want to have this very much fatty body. ANYMORE. There was nothing I could do that making friends with my own body. I dont want to be mentioned as the fat girl, so then I started to diet. I eat much little than usual. I didnt have dinner. I love fasting. I didnt eat junks, burgers, or whatever like them.
I forced my self to do this diet hard.
Dont even care about my hunger. I just wanna be not fat anymore. I ate freely just one time on lunch. Little carbos, much proteins and veges. Now my BMI is on normal range. I lost about 14 kilos. From 68 to 53,8kgs right now. But, the words who said I am a fat fat fat girl is always sounding on my ears. Until now. I am still fat, at least that is what I am feeling. I am listening the fat words all over my days. I dont care about my normal BMI, when I saw my own body on the mirror, I saw fat all over my body.
I hate this.
"Be careful about your words, maybe they will actually eternally live in someone's ears. All over the time, and caused some pains."

Friday, June 7, 2013

You liked him.

You stared at me. Maybe for times. I caught you. I caught the way you stared at me. That was something about a dislike. A dislike stared. I asked my self why you did that. I asked someone about you did that. I found no answers. I used to not find even an answer. But now, I know. 
You liked him.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Fairyshoes

I dont know why i loved to edit my feet with shoes just like these.
This is me time that i've always loved! Fit shoes, no one bothering. I love love love shoes. I'm in love with shoes. Maybe in couples day i wanna make some orders for my new baby shoes. One or two :D

I called shoes as fairyshoes. 
 

all edited with mobile on picsay editor.

Monday, June 3, 2013

... for being my friend?

I miss you my dear Solid09 friends.
I dont know why i wondered about : are you happy for being my friend? :|

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Everybody needs to have secrets.

For me, secrets are something lik fairytales that i can make. Without any secrets, what my life would be.
And you, peps, i bet you have a or maybe some secret(s). You keep it. Then someday you share it to another you trust them the muchest. Or maybe you keep the secret only to someone you hate the most? Someone you love the most? It depends on you. You have choice.
For you infos, being the only one who didnt know something you called secret, is really not nice. It can make the only one has negative thinking. If the only one is you friend, maybe (s)he will wonder about your friendship anyway. Something like this : "Why am I the only one? Are they truly dont want to make friendship with me?" And etc like that.
But, okay, everybody needs to have secrets.

 
wishpering a or some secret(s)


Tuesday, April 16, 2013

We all have to grow old.

Sometimes I just think about the memorable-childhood, and then I wanna go back. But I realize, life must go on. And I have to grow old. We all have to grow old. But maybe, these pictures can bring you to your memorable-childhood again. Same with they did to me :)

Children around the world with their much cost things.

Chiwa - Mchinji, Malawi
Virginia American - Fork, Utah 
Tyra - Sweden
 
Alessia - Castiglion Fiorentino, Italy 
 Botlhe - Maun, Bostwana
Julia - Tirana, Albania 
 Cun Zi Yi - Chongging, China
Bethsaida - Port au Prince, Haiti 
Tangawizi - Keekorok, Kenya
Arafa and Aisha - Bububu, Zanzibar
Watcharapom - Bangkok, Thailand 
Stella - Montecchio, Italy
 
Pavel - Kiev, Ukraine
Orly - Brownsville, Texas 
Norden - Massa, Marocco
Keynor - Cahuita, Costa Rica

Shaira - Mumbai, India
Maudy - Kalulushi, Zambia
Allenah Lajalab - el Nido, Philiphinnes
Abel - Nopaltepec, Messico
 Elene - Umekashvili, Georgia
David Pace - Bugeja, Malta
 Farida Barakat - Cairo, Egypt
Enea - Colorado, US
 Kalesi - Fiji Island
 Li Yi Chen - China
 Lucas - Sidney, Australia
 Jaqueline Amelie - Manila, Philiphinnes
 Naya - Managua, Nicaragua
Niko - Alaska
 Noel - South Dallas, Texas
 Ragnar, Iceland
 Puput - Ubud, Bali, Indonesia
Ralf - Riga
 Reanya Velaithan -  KL, Malaysia
 Ryan - South Africa
 Talia Arabi - Algeria
 Taha Abou Chellah - Beirut, Lebanon

All these photos are credit to Gabriele Galimberti. This photo concept is truly amazing. Oh, someday the children will know they have had the cost toys through their childhood.
To see more Galimberti's photos, you can visit her website. Simply click here.

"At their age, they are pretty all much the same; They just want to play.."