Well-not.

Well, sometimes i just feel like oh God! Yes.. Aku iriiii!!

Ke siapa? Ke kalian yang punya pacar juga banci kamera. Not banci beneran tapi ya setidaknya bisa berfoto-foto asik dengan kalian.

It's soooooooo different with my E. He's just not a camera-boy! 

It has been for months since we took photos! 

Sometimes, i thought taking pictures of me and E was just very important. Especially if we got to some new places or some interesting places. But he didnt think so. Makes me feel eeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrr.... 

So, friends. Keep your boyfie narsis-narsis jangan sampai luntur. Ohkaaaaaaaaaaay!!

Asks

Everyone was asking me such this :
Why did you choose him for being your boyfie?

My heart actually asked too. Why did he choose me for being his girlfie?
I love you so much, E.

Happy graduation day!

Happy graduation day my dear E.
I love you so much. I really do.
I wish you anything the best for your life. dan semoga your life becomes our life.
Very proud of you!

all photos credit to Ika Yuliani, Renny and anyone took from my mobile. thank you.

 

"You know, you're very special for me.. Once again, I love you so much.."

Hanya saja.

Kita memang saling mencintai. Hanya saja tak mampu saling membahagiakan. Tapi juga tak sanggup untuk saling menyakiti. Biar Tuhan saja lah yang menamai apa perasaan kita ini namanya.

Satu hal yang pasti. Aku masih suka ketika kita saling bertatap mata. Lalu seolah aku bercermin melihat perasaanku juga ada di sana, dalam matamu. Bagiku, juga bagimu, mungkin semua ini sudah cukup untuk tetap menjaga percik api cinta dalam hati kita ini abadi. Walau tanpa sumbu.

Words bullying.

Be careful for your words.

Many people didnt realize that saying some insults by text or words is including into bullying too. Unfortunately, many other people who insulted by those saying words or texts were keeping silent for the hurts and pains the felt.

Do you know what kind of words that could be including into bullying? I bet you know. There are so many words. For some examples, the mocking words, stupid, fat, and etc. Or maybe words which described one side of the person you mocked at. Words like black to describe their dark skin, fatty for them who has more fat in their body and whatever just like that. For your informations, if you saw those sides about them, someone out there will actually saw too. So, just soooo much please, do not say it too much. Regularly. Out loud everyday, maybe everytime. 

Right now, maybe you're thinking like this : "yeah they're just too sensitive.."

Yes, you can say it. Yes you can. Because you didnt feel those hurts and pains when somebody mocked at you. You dont know because you're not the bullied person. You dont know how if the person is about being bullied all the time. You may wonder, how can I know?! because i am the person (too).

I am fat. Yes, I know.

But why do people say it too much? 

I feel hurts. You dont know.

Why do people just cant see the hurts and pains i have accepted? From my eyes, maybe. Oh, they dont even care.

Because of those words bullying. Orals or not. I was becoming less-confidence. I feel, I didnt have any clothes that fits me well. I felt, I was just that big big big big girl. I hate my body. So much. I hate the fat in my body. So much.

OhmyGod, I just think that actually ther was no one who wanted to be my friend. That actually those who still can be my friends are knowing me accidentally. Sorry for this negative thoughts :(

They say, I am fat.

They always say, I am fat.

It insults me everytime I mirrored my self.

I am just a fat girl.

I am just a fat girl.

Yes, their words which said that I am fat is always sounds on my ears.

I am broken hearted.

I have been being fat since long time ago. I know enough.

For some moments, I thought that I didnt want to have this very much fatty body. ANYMORE. There was nothing I could do that making friends with my own body. I dont want to be mentioned as the fat girl, so then I started to diet. I eat much little than usual. I didnt have dinner. I love fasting. I didnt eat junks, burgers, or whatever like them.

I forced my self to do this diet hard.

Dont even care about my hunger. I just wanna be not fat anymore. I ate freely just one time on lunch. Little carbos, much proteins and veges. Now my BMI is on normal range. I lost about 14 kilos. From 68 to 53,8kgs right now. But, the words who said I am a fat fat fat girl is always sounding on my ears. Until now. I am still fat, at least that is what I am feeling. I am listening the fat words all over my days. I dont care about my normal BMI, when I saw my own body on the mirror, I saw fat all over my body.

I hate this.

"Be careful about your words, maybe they will actually eternally live in someone's ears. All over the time, and caused some pains."

You liked him.

You stared at me. Maybe for times. I caught you. I caught the way you stared at me. That was something about a dislike. A dislike stared. I asked my self why you did that. I asked someone about you did that. I found no answers. I used to not find even an answer. But now, I know. 

You liked him.

Fairyshoes

I dont know why i loved to edit my feet with shoes just like these.

This is me time that i've always loved! Fit shoes, no one bothering. I love love love shoes. I'm in love with shoes. Maybe in couples day i wanna make some orders for my new baby shoes. One or two :D

I called shoes as fairyshoes. 

 

all edited with mobile on picsay editor.

... for being my friend?

I miss you my dear Solid09 friends.
I dont know why i wondered about : are you happy for being my friend? :|

Everybody needs to have secrets.

For me, secrets are something lik fairytales that i can make. Without any secrets, what my life would be.
And you, peps, i bet you have a or maybe some secret(s). You keep it. Then someday you share it to another you trust them the muchest. Or maybe you keep the secret only to someone you hate the most? Someone you love the most? It depends on you. You have choice.
For you infos, being the only one who didnt know something you called secret, is really not nice. It can make the only one has negative thinking. If the only one is you friend, maybe (s)he will wonder about your friendship anyway. Something like this : "Why am I the only one? Are they truly dont want to make friendship with me?" And etc like that.
But, okay, everybody needs to have secrets.

 

wishpering a or some secret(s)

We all have to grow old.

Sometimes I just think about the memorable-childhood, and then I wanna go back. But I realize, life must go on. And I have to grow old. We all have to grow old. But maybe, these pictures can bring you to your memorable-childhood again. Same with they did to me :)

Children around the world with their much cost things.

Chiwa - Mchinji, Malawi

Virginia American - Fork, Utah 

Tyra - Sweden

 

Alessia - Castiglion Fiorentino, Italy 

 Botlhe - Maun, Bostwana

Julia - Tirana, Albania 

 Cun Zi Yi - Chongging, China

Bethsaida - Port au Prince, Haiti 

Tangawizi - Keekorok, Kenya

Arafa and Aisha - Bububu, Zanzibar

Watcharapom - Bangkok, Thailand 

Stella - Montecchio, Italy

 

Pavel - Kiev, Ukraine

Orly - Brownsville, Texas 

Norden - Massa, Marocco

Keynor - Cahuita, Costa Rica

Shaira - Mumbai, India

Maudy - Kalulushi, Zambia

Allenah Lajalab - el Nido, Philiphinnes

Abel - Nopaltepec, Messico

 Elene - Umekashvili, Georgia

David Pace - Bugeja, Malta

 Farida Barakat - Cairo, Egypt

Enea - Colorado, US

 Kalesi - Fiji Island

 Li Yi Chen - China

 Lucas - Sidney, Australia

 Jaqueline Amelie - Manila, Philiphinnes

 Naya - Managua, Nicaragua

Niko - Alaska

 Noel - South Dallas, Texas

 Ragnar, Iceland

 Puput - Ubud, Bali, Indonesia

Ralf - Riga

 Reanya Velaithan -  KL, Malaysia

 Ryan - South Africa

 Talia Arabi - Algeria

 Taha Abou Chellah - Beirut, Lebanon

All these photos are credit to Gabriele Galimberti. This photo concept is truly amazing. Oh, someday the children will know they have had the cost toys through their childhood.
To see more Galimberti's photos, you can visit her website. Simply click here.

"At their age, they are pretty all much the same; They just want to play.."