Wednesday, February 15, 2012

L is for love.

Hari ini tanggal 14 Februari 2012 pukul 23.55. Sebentar lagi sih hari yang katanya mereka hari kasih sayang ini berakhir. Tapi tetep dong, kasih sayang yang kalian rasain itu gakboleh ikutan berakhir ya! ;;)


Kasih sayang itu gak selalu identik memang dengan suatu perasaan asmara yg indah bagi sepasang muda mudi anak Adam. Tapi, ya gak bisa juga sih dipungkiri kalau kasih sayang itu bagian dari kisah asmara sepasang makhluk ciptaan Tuhan. They called it with love 



Love atau dalam Bahasa Indonesia diartikan sebagai cinta memang diciptakan untuk sebuah kebahagiaan. Harusnya. Kenapa? Karena sepertinya gak sedikit juga ya yang terluka karena perasaan cinta tersebut. Padahal, sebenarnya cinta itu memang hanya diciptakan untuk sebuah kebahagiaan. Bukan yg lain. Gak ada rasa sakit, rasa kecewa, rasa merana yang disebabkan oleh cinta. Cinta itu putih suci. Mungkin, yang menyebabkan perasaan-perasaan kecewa itu bukan cinta. Tapi ambisi dari diri kita dan ambisi itu dengan mudah menemukan kambing hitam. Kambing hitamnya adalah cinta.

Saya sih gak terlalu khatam dalam dunia percintaan. 
Dalam hidup, gak banyak laki-laki yang singgah di hati saya yang dihatinya juga ada saya. Tentunya yang dimulai dari kata-kata cinta yang diungkapkan ya! Hihihi..
Sebagai perempuan, saya selalu menganggap kalau dalam urusan percintaan terhadap lawan jenis ini, para lelaki adalah pihak yang selalu beruntung. Kenapa? Ah, mereka selalu saja sah dalam hal mengungkapkan perasaan cinta. Walau, bukan gak mungkin juga sih wanita tidak ada yang memiliki sifat dan keberanian seperti lelaki (pada semestinya). Hanya saja, kebetulan, sejak dahulu hingga sekarang, disekeliling saya, jumlah wanita yang memiliki sifat seperti itu masih jauh sekali dari jumlahnya lelaki yang punya sifat itu.

Sebagai salah satu dari prempuan, apalagi sebagai saya, mengungkapkan perasaan yang disebut cinta pada seseorang yang belum memulai dengan saya untuk berbagi cinta itu semacam sebuah kesukaran yang amat amat sangat sukar. Tidak terlalu paham dan bisa untuk melakukan hal itu. Ah, kadang saya berfikir, kenapa gak berani aja bilang suka sama orang yang mungkin juga suka jika dilihat dari perangainya. Kenapa perempuan bersikap seperti itu? Enggan mulai, tetapi mau. wehehe cuma bisa memberikan sinyal, yang kadang laki-laki gak ngerti (atau pura-pura tidak mengerti).


Detik ini saya tulis kata ini, udah berganti hari ternyata.. :)

Ah, pals, kalau bicara soal cinta kayanya banyak banget ya mozaik-mozaiknya. Jutaan, milyaran, aaah pokoknya banyak. Dalam kisah percintaan dalam hidup saya aja ada bermilyar mozaik hihi. 
Pokoknya, jangan ragu deh ungkapin rasa cinta kalian ke seseorang yang kalian cinta. Daripada menjadi sebuah sesuatu yang tertinggal tanpa terungkap, kan?! 

Pesan aja sih untuk kalian para manusia yang sedang merasakan anugerah cinta.
Untuk perempuan : Gak ada salahnya sih untuk memulai. Walaupun menurut saya ini juga sangat sulit. Tapi, mungkin memang dia laki-laki untuk kamu. Untuk nemenin kebahagiaan kamu. Atau memberi sinyal-sinyal hahaha. Sinyalnya disesuaikan aja tapinya. Gak perlu juga setiap hari sms. Takutnya dia ilfeel. Apalagi kalau yg ditaksir seorang laki-laki yang pemalu dan umm, gak berani mulai kalau gak ada sinyal. Cumaa, ya, sebagai cewe ga bagus juga ya kalau terus-terusan kayak gini. Kalau memang response mereka terhadap sinyal-sinyal cinta kalian gak ada, jangan dipaksain. Bisa malu-maluin diri sendiri kalau gitu. get it, no?
Kalau untuk laki-laki sih gak ada, hanya saja. Kalian beruntung kan udah jadi cowok yang dalam tanda kutip bebas dan selalu sah untuk memulai dan bilang cinta. Be sensitive lah sedikit terhadap sinyal-sinyal yang diberi para wanita hihihi.. :-p Kalau suka, start it. kalau engga, leave it. Gausah jadi php!! *err

By the way, ini persepsi dari sudut pandang saya loh ya! 
Happy late val's day, everyone.

Say your love, you will never regret.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Life + time = lifetime.

Everyday i count days, i wondered about futures.
My future, my family's, my friend's..

Shall I graduate from college?
Shall I go adult?
Shall I get jobs that i want to?
Shall I get married?
Shall I have sons or daughters that have a similar face with me or my hubby?
Shall I grow old?
Shall I owe "you"?
Shall I spend my time with someone i love?
and so many "shall I" i wonder to my count days..

But, ah, who knows?
Who knows about future?
I am just so scare.
How if i didnt have much age to reach all things i wanted to?
How if i didnt have much chance to be with someone that i loved so much badly?
How if i didnt have much time to be with you, pals, parents, families, neighbors, anyone?

I am just too scare of being someone that leave this world by an ill. Or by an accident..
I am just too scare :'(

Lifetime is not about time actually, but about life too. if you have a good quality life, you must be have a good quality time for everyone you know or know you.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Did you write those lyrics in heaven? Did you compose this song in heaven?

The spirit carries on.

Music by Dream Theater
Lyrics by John Petrucci


Nicholas:
Where did we come from,
Why all we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say, "Life is too short,"
"The here and the now"
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that we've got?

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

Victoria:
"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear"

Nicholas:
Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victoria's real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that I'm here
It's perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

It is just a cool song. Amaze me.
Did you write those lyrics in heaven? Did you compose this song in heaven?
Truly a great and touching song.. Hyped.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

I hope. I do hope..

Today was not really my day. Not really. It was just so much worst.
I hate to know this fact. I hate to be sad cause i know this fact.
I dont wanna be me, be someone that knowing this fact. I dont wanna someone i love so much, must be at this situation. I dont want, really, I dont want..

What is it going to be, when you know you're in a serious ill?
What is it going to be, when you know that someone who knows you very well is in a serious ill?

You know what is it like if you are in thus situation, no?!
I did, pals.. 
I am feeling that, now :'(.
And I am so sad. I am so broke to know this fact.
Nothing is gonna be as same as yesterday,  everything's changing from now and on.

I am afraid, so much afraid.
I hope, you get your best health again :'( I do hope, you get yourself again. So much love <3

A poetry. A remember. A you.

What do you know about a poetry?
Yes, a poetry.. A poetry can talk about whatever. About pains, sorrows, sads, happy, loves, brokes or maybe flats. I love poetry. From whoever the creator, I just love a poetry. ofcourse a good one or maybe a poetry that describes what i am feeling right now :D. You do too, no?

I know this poetry when i was in 2nd grade in my junior high school. I knew it because that was the moment we had to perform a poetry in front of the class. I knew it and then i feel loved. It is a cool poetry, pals.. really it does.
I forgot about this whole poetry actually and ofcourse the one behind :p. But i didnt forget about the last words, the coolest part. I never forget it. At least, til now..
Then, I decided to search it in Google. And yes, Google told me about the poetry.
Enjoy this poetry like i did, pals..




Soni Farid Maulana

Kau

Memang di musim salju
Tak ada bunga kuncup walau sepucuk
Tapi di dasar kalbuku; kau setangkai angkuli
Mekar sudah.

Malam hanya angin dingin
Mengetuk-ngetuk jendela kamarku,
Menggigilkan pepohonan. Tapi bara
yang kau taruh dalam hatiku; berkobar,

Menjelma api, menghangatkan pikir dan rasa
Mencairkan gairah hidupku yag nyaris beku
Sepadat batu. Di lain waktu kau adalah arus air

Mendenyutkan sungai yang dikerontangkan
Terik matahari. Kau arah yang kutuju
Bebas dari kehancuran

(2001)



This poetry has also been translated by someone, named Nikmah Sarjono.
This english version is the first I know before the bahasa indonesia version. Ah,  feel like i am a juniorhighschoolgirl again, sit down at the back of class, read this poetry again, again, again and never feel bored. Until my name was called by my teacher. That's sweet. a 2nd grade juniorhighschoolgirl, with a poetry that impressed her so much. i swear, i never feel like so much adored a poetry, except this!
And here for, you..

You

Indeed in the winter
There isn’t a single bud of flower
But in the bottom of my heart;
You are a beautiful Angkuli
In bloom

Night is only the cold wind
Knocking on my window
Trembling the trees. But the flame
You aroused in my soul; blazing

Becomes fire, warms my thoughts and senses
Melting my almost frozen passion of life
Like a rock. At other times you are the water flowing
Throbing again the dry river
Dehydrated by the sun. 
You are my destination
Free from destruction.

(2001)

"And I still remember about You are my destination. Free from destruction.. And maybe, i wont ever forget about that last piece of the poetry.."